Life is a high way...I wanna ride it.. all night long!

So, the wedding plans are still at the same point they were at in September. We may have found a photographer.. but we have to check the budget first. When I think about the wedding it gets my stomach all butterfly-e (thats a word now!! lol) I'm not nervous to get married just nervous about the day. I just keep hoping everything goes smoothly. I'm sure that's every brides thought...

So we moved about an hour from my family, and that has been really hard on me lately. It's not that I'm unhappy with where we moved just that my family isn't out here.. I miss having someone always around.. and having someone to just do random girlie things! I love living with Ray its just sometimes you need your girl time! So I appoligize to Ray now cause I have been a little emotional lately... its just that I miss my momma and dad.. and my sisters and all the kids! When you live at home and you've had a really stressful day its soooo easy to say.. i can't wait to get the hell out of here! lol but once your gone a part of you misses that drama-filled-hectic-mental-institution!! lol
The holidays are coming and my ultimate organized sister (frannie) is already shopping... If i could just have an ounce of her motivation I would be %100 better off in life!! lol Nikki is having a halloween party and I CAN'T WAIT!! PARTY ON WAYNE! Tiff is still being a rockstar!! thats her tho.. if i wasn't soooo impatient about growing up.. i think i would be right there with her!! lol maybe i can't hang like she can.. but i can damn sure try!!
My dad is having a really hard time right now... it just seems to be one thing after another with him.. and it breaks my heart.. he has always been the man that NEVER i mean NEVER took off work for anything.. and was always working on something and getting things done. Well now they are saying that he might have emphsyma. That makes me sick to think about what he is going through.. how could someone who is so dedicated to making a life for his family just have the worst things happen to him. it just doesn't seem fair. I could just cry all day long about everything that has happened to him in the last 5 years... its just been one shitty year after another...
On a happy note!!! Today Ray was (finally) granted overnights!!! Now we can try and live a normal life!! lol So this weekend is the first weekend Caleb will sleep at home with us!! wish us luck!! lol
This was kind of a boring one.. but what can I say I live a boring life!! lol j/k
ITS ALMOST HALLOWEEN!!!! I CAN'T WAIT!!!
Love you all
xoxo

K.Marie

Here comes the bride!!

hello all!!
Saturday is the day were going to see a venue for the wedding!! It seems really reasonable which is really hard to find in this day! My parents always tell me that their wedding was under 1000.00 thats for everything! and I say....HAHAHA yea right... that could never happen these days!! lol A cheap wedding would be around 8,000.00, the average wedding last year was about 20,000.00. I am hoping not to even touch 10,000 i take that back... i am not coming near 10,000.00 lol my food, room, liquor, china, and linens... is going to be about 5,700.00, I haven't even looked for a florist, photographer/videographer, and cake designer!! plus.. you need gifts for your bridal/groom-man party, favors for shower and wedding!! when you look at it as a whole... its a lot to worry about!!! thank god I have my sisters to help me!! I think by this time (on my own) I would be in a corner crying!! lol
We are so thankful that my fiance's uncle is going to dj as our wedding present... we can check that off the list!! I'm hoping to get to david's bridal sometime soon with all the girls to pick out their dresses.... Its really hard to find a dress that everyone agrees on!! One thing that I said to them was that they can all chose what ever style they like and just have it in the same color! that is a great option for them!!
well i just wanted to blog again... and this topic is always fresh in my mind!!
i'll keep you all posted on the progress... leave comment if you have any good ideas for the wedding!!
love ya all!!!
xoxo

This is weird!! who's gonna read it!! lmao!!

hey everyone!!
this IS fun!!
ok since we only live once i plan on living life to the fullest!! lol idk exactly what that means right now... but i fully plan on it!! First, I am going to try my HARDEST to not listen or care when people talk bad about me... and about what people who don't matter say about me... as along as my family accepts me then that is all that matters. Second, I am going to smile everyday because the people that I surround myself with are the people who love me! Lastly/Third, I am going to have an amazing wedding... you only get married once and why not have the wedding that you dreamed of when you were a little girl. I know that I am marrying the love of my life, prince charming of my dreams, so why not!!? My sisters right now... i know for sure are saying or thinking... eww gross!! lmao... but its ok!! because i know thats how they feel about the person they have found too... my goal in life is to be fair, and to be a great wife... i don't care what goes on outside of our home as long as we have love what does it matter!!!! I don't know really what else right now....
God bless everyone.... drive carefully no matter the day!!! love everyone in your life.. who knows when their going to leave it....
every night talk to angel... my family will know what that means!!
love you all